everybody wants to be loved
oh everybody knows the love
everybody holds the love
everybody falls for love
everybody feels the love
everybody steals the love
everybody heals with love
just let the love, love, love begin
I feel inspired . . . and usually when I feel inspired it is because I find a song that strikes a cord in harmony with the feelings of my heart. Music is a way I like to express myself emotionally. Music is my voice when I struggle to find the words. I have been very blessed in my life. I have a wonderfully loving, husband that provides all of the safety and comfort in my life. He is the love of my life. I have 5 thriving, beautiful, loving, talented children that enrich, fulfill, and bring such great meaning and purpose to my life. I have been blessed and influenced greatly by my amazing parents that have loved me through my dark pain and rejoiced in my triumphs. They are such a loving example of what it is to be in love, love ones family, work hard, and to play together.
I know that my Father in Heaven has never given me a trial that He knew that I couldn't bear. That is when you have to find the strength to endure it one day at a time. Looking back on my life now if given the chance to change the past . . . I wouldn't change a thing . . . all the sadness, all of the suffering in silence, all of the heartbreak . . . has given me a better appreciation for each tender mercy that my Heavenly Father has touched my life. That I may better understand someone else at war with the decision to place their baby for adoption, that I may better understand their pain and their sorrow. And at the same time that I may feel their joy when they marry a good man and start a family all their own. The joy in that baby that they are going to hold forever in their arms.
Happy is the heart that still feels pain
Darkness drains and light will come again
Swing open your chest and let it in
Just let the love, love, love begin.
That being said I am so grateful to David & Mary for being my light in my darkness. They are the best parents to the baby I placed. When all I had was love, they gave her the life I always wanted for her. They were always meant to be her parents . . . and I was always meant to be the woman that gave her a family.
Without pain how can I have true joy? David & Mary have given me the gift of their love. They have allowed me and my family into their hearts and welcomed us into their lives. They have allowed us to be apart of their family. We are so grateful. They have healed my once broken heart with such great LOVE. I am truly BLESSED.
I have a testimony that the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints is the true church. I know that Joseph Smith was a true prophet and that Thomas S. Monson is our prophet of God today. I know that families are forever. I know that I have a loving Father in Heaven. I know that Jesus Christ died for me that I may return to live with Him. I know my Heavenly Father & Savior have always been so merciful and mindful of me. These things I leave with you in the name of Jesus Christ, Amen.
to: David, Mary, Emma, & Sam
I want you to know that our time there spent with you guys is something so special. I have many memories to look on with sweet fondness. Mother to Mother, Mary you are amazing! I love you so much!!! I have such an admiration for you that grows with each visit, each letter, each picture. My heart is FULL! I can't thank you both enough. You are such kind, loving, and generous people. I loved every minute of our time together. To watch the kids together was a new kind of wonderful. I don't think that there are words created to convey the beauty of watching Jolee and Emma together. . . To see Emma wake Kylee from her sleeping beauty slumber. . . To watch her fascination with baby David as I watched her watching him. . . It was nothing short of amazing! My words may betray me or falter. . . but I am so grateful, Thank you. I really did pick the BEST parents in the whole wide world that were perfect for her in every way. Thank you! Thank you! Thank you, for everything!
P.S. I love you the most!
for those of you who want to sing along with me
. . . . . this is for you ~Sara
"Everybody"
We have fallen down again tonight
In this world it’s hard to get it right
Try to make your heart feel like a glove
What it needs is love, love, love
Everybody, everybody wants to love
Everybody, everybody wants to be loved
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
Everybody, everybody wants to love
Everybody, everybody wants to be loved
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
Happy is the heart that still feels pain
Darkness drains and light will come again
Swing open up your chest and let it in
Just let the love, love, love begin
Everybody, everybody wants to love
Everybody, everybody wants to be loved
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
Everybody, everybody wants to love
Everybody, everybody wants to be loved
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
oh everybody knows the love
Everybody holds the love
Everybody falls for love
Everybody feels the love
Everybody steals the love,
everybody heals with love
Oh, oh, oh, oh, just let the love, love, love begin
Everybody, everybody wants to love
Everybody, everybody wants to be loved
Oh, oh, oh, Just let the love, love, love begin
Everybody, everybody wants to love
Everybody, everybody wants to be loved
Oh, oh, oh, Just let the love, love, love begin
Everybody, everybody wants to love
Everybody, everybody wants to be loved
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
Everybody feels to love
Everybody steals to be loved
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
Everybody, everybody wants to love (oh everybody)
Everybody, everybody wants to be loved (oh everybody)
Oh, oh, oh, (oh everybody) oh, oh, oh (oh everybody) oh, oh, oh, oh. Oh.
Everybody, everybody wants to love (oh everybody)
Everybody, everybody wants to be loved (oh everybody)
Oh, oh, oh, (oh everybody) oh, oh, oh (oh everybody) oh, oh, oh, oh. Oh.
The baptism date was now set for Saturday May 5th, 2012 at the Wasilla, Alaska Stake Center. (Ironically enough this was the very building that we had place baby Emma for adoption 10years and 4 months exactly to the day -- pretty amazing stuff!!! It still blows my mind how Heavenly Father has a hand all throughout our lives. And continues to bless me and the lives of my family when I strive to listen and obey the promptings of the Holy Ghost.) And here we are in this place. All together again. With prayers in our hearts in hopes that Emma will be baptized with Jolee today.
Kylee is anxious to hold sweet little baby Hartlee.
Shandelle plays the prelude music for us as we begin to quietly take our seats.
Jolee and Shandelle are excited when it is their turn to hold baby Hartlee.
We grab all of the kids for a quick family picture.
Uncle Loren gives wonderful talk on Baptism. He did such a good job! No notes or anything. The "Elder Breshears" came out in him and it was quite an awesome sight to see. I felt only too lucky to be there to hear what the spirit prompted him to say. I love ya, Loren!
Now it is time for the girls to go down into the baptismal font with their fathers. Jolee holds out her hand to Emma to encourage her to walk down into the water.
Peter baptizes Jolee first in hopes that with Jolee's example that Emma may now know what to expect. Jolee was baptized and did wonderfully (none of her toes popped up or her dress). Now it's Emma's turn . . . she wants her Dad to baptize her dolly first(Summer School Rose Muller Clift -- who is wearing Kylee's temple sealing dress bytheway). Daddy does as he is told (anything for sweet Emma - it was very cute). Then it was Emma's turn. She wanted so badly to do it herself. She really wanted to be baptized and was trying so hard to be brave. She was all in but her chin and was starting to panic a bit. Daddy was trying so hard to keep her calm and focused. Jolee was helping to encourage her. Her Momma knelt down at the edge of the font to be closer to her and comfort her. It was now or never. David saw a moment and quickly seized it. Emma was baptized! What a beautiful experience! I don't think there was a dry eye in the room. It was truly a moment I will never forget and enjoy looking back on for the rest of my life.
Here is my sweet, beautiful Jolee girl in her confirmation dress. I can't believe that my little baby girl is growing up! All to quickly for me. And she will be 9 in a few days!!
(Funny thing about this dress is that when Mary and I were getting ready the night before and were laying out all of the girls things for the BIG day . . . she and I both pulled out the "SAME" dress -- this was NOT planned and we bought them years apart, from different places, we had both had them for years before this day. And this is the dress that they were both confirmed in. How amazing is that!!)
After they both dried off using there baptismal towels -- gifted to them from Grammy and Grampy (They were white towels with their names and the date of their baptism embroidered in pink. They were amazingly plush and soft. What a hit! Good Job Momma Jane!)Here are both of the girls have changed into their confirmation dresses. They are both so beautiful! What an awesome day!
Here is our FAVORITE Gramma! My Daddy's sweet Momma (my Gramma, and the girls GREAT Gramma) giving the talk on the Holy Ghost. She compared the Holy Ghost to our own personal little Jiminy Cricket. That the Holy Ghost will always be with us as long as we listen. That he is a gift from our loving Heavenly Father to help us to "Choose the Right". Our Gramma really is the BESTEST!! And we love her the most!
After Jolee was confirmed a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints we took a quick cousin picture with all of the cousins (minus Emma, she was a little camera shy). Emma was confirmed later in California with all of Mary's family so that they could also participate and be apart of her special day.
